hi, my name is Nat & i am a maker. Not a designer, not a girl boss, not an entrepreneur… i tried, & i suck at it. And that is ok. There are people that are really good at it, it comes naturally to them. i am not one of those people. i am the one who loves to make their designs, who wants to buy their products. Who wants to share them with other makers like me. That’s what i love to do. And that’s what i am going to keep doing.
You see, i love to make, & i think, i’m pretty good at that. Somewhere along the lines though, i think i forgot that i NEED to make, just for me. Crafting is my therapy, it is my escape, & i NEED it. i think i started to feel guilty about the time (& the money), i was spending on my hobby. So i tried to make it back by selling my finished items. it wasn’t for me, & it started to take away my crojo (crochet mojo).
Isn’t it the dream? Getting paid to crochet? Oh how i wish that i could, but i can’t. Anyone who has tried to sell their crochet, or anything handmade for that matter, will tell you how hard it is. Crochet is time consuming to make, the weeks & months just to finish a blanket.. how do you convert that into a dollar figure? How do you get that back? Enough to make an income? Its really hard. I now its possible, i have no doubt that you can if you really try, & you feel really passionate about it. i didn’t, & i couldn’t. I take my hat off to all the small businesses who have been able to run a successful business from it!!
In a somewhat similar fashion, i turned my hand to designing. Nope, didn’t like it. i don’t like frogging, & you have to do A LOT of frogging when you design something. Ew. i have a lot of ideas for designs, but i just cannot transform them into crochet, i tried. I don’t like pattern writing either.. i noticed i tend to make up my own crochet language, or do things with my crochet that doesn’t translate well to a generic pattern for people to follow. The only thing i would be interested in, was some sort of a collaboration, where i had the idea & someone came up with the pattern? That would be fun. Does that even exist?! But the actual designing myself, nope, no thanks.
So why do i feel so guilty? Why do i keep trying to sell my makes? Maybe because i run out of things to make too.. the twins are drowning in amigurumi toys, so i thought i could see the overflow instead? i think i feel this pressure, if i am not selling it, it i cannot justify a business for my crochet, then i am wasting my time.. i am wasting our money.. i am taking away from the twins, i am taking away from the household, i am taking away from my husband. i am being lazy. i should spend my time bringing in an income… these are the thoughts that flood through my head… BUT… then i remember.. it makes me a better MUM, a better WIFE. Making relaxes me, it gives me more patience, it gives me an outlet when i am frustrated, & tired. So yes, i feed it my time, i feed it money.. but it gives us all something back. It may not be money, but is pays in happiness.
Happy wife, happy life 🙂
Just to be clear, my hubby is very supportive of my making, & even my yarn collecting hobby 😉 even though i think he doesn’t completely understand my NEED to buy more yarn when i have lots already haha.. but he doesn’t complain.
i just want to make. i want to make & share YOUR designs instead, i want to promote your yarn, share your products. That’s what i love!! i love supporting other makers, designers & businesses. Whether that will somehow become some sort of business in its own right? Maybe. But i doubt it. But that’s ok. Today i am going to finally close the LCT shop, i am going to try hard to stop feeling guilty, & i am going to just make, & maybe try writing & sharing more about it on here too 🙂
Who is joining me?
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